"I am Leaving!!"

So I'm finally leaving the MTC I leave tomorrow at 3:35 AM! I don't
get a lot of time because we only get a little bit of time to send
some last messages because my next P-Day will be a week from tomorrow!
I'm doing great! I had a couple hard days but my week has also been
filled with tender mercies from the lord! Including lots of Christmas
spirit! So I can't write much but here is lots of pictures and I'll
send you a link to the best Christmas video about the coming of
Christ!  It's got lots a cute kids in it mom so you will love it!

https://www.christmas.mormon.org

Week 6: Still in the MTC

Brace yourself for another long email.... Sorry not sorry

Wow this week was the best and the worst. I have already had to say
goodbye to 5 missionaries from my district and the last one leaves at
4 today. And I had to say goodbye to the French district that I love.
But we have had some amazing classes and I'm learning a ton and we had
Chick-fil-a... Crazy week. It is also my last P-day in the MTC so
there is so much to do!

The week started with us getting a new district on Wednesday! We were
so excited that I forgot how hard it was to be here the first week.
Since Hermana Soe is Sister training leader we had to give them a tour
and get to know them. We had 3 Hermana's and 6 elders. All but one are
going to Argentina. We were so excited for the new Hermana's but they
weren't so excited for us. The Elders are all super great and awesome
but the Hermana's need a little more help. We have 2 with panic
attacks anxiety and depression. And one ended up going home. So we are
down to two more and they are having a hard time. At the end of every
day one of them says she wants to go home. Everyday. We have tried so
hard to help her see that you choose to be here and if your gonna
choose to be here you might as well have a good attitude and try to
learn from all the amazing teachers we get the privilege to learn
from. It's really hard to help someone who doesn't want help so please
pray for her heart to be softened to the promtings the spirt. Me and
Hermana Soe have one more week to try and help her realized the the
MTC is the best place you could be but only if you are humble. I feel
like the gospel of Jesus Christ is a lot like that as well. Our
Heavenly Father is waiting every day to teach you and to love you and
to help you, but we must be humble on our own first and only then can
the lord shape us into who we need to become. Good news is I know the
power of praying for love everyday. I have witnessed it change lives
here at the MTC so this whole week I will be praying to have the pure
love of Christ and do my best to help her see how amazing it is to
serve the lord.

Best part of Wednesday was that I had SO MANY FRIENDS COME TO THE MTC
TODAY!!! I got to see Jackson Zamora ( from home), Anally (from home),
Jake Taylor (from byu summer term), and Tanner Taguchi (from aspen
grove)! It was like one big surprise during dinner! I loved it!

Thursday
This is where things get kinds weird. We went to infield orientation
all day today even though we don't leave till next week. It was
amazing but kinda sucked because it got me excited to leave the MTC
and then I remembered that I still had 2 weeks left... Tear.... We
went this week so we could go together as a district so next week we
I'll just skip it and study some more? Or go again? I have no idea.
But It was fun because we got to be partnered up with random
missionaries that weren't in our district and 2 of them were the
frenches ( the French district that I am in love with because they are
all so nice and we play volley ball with them every night at gym!)
basically France better watch out because they have the best
missionaries coming that way. And I found out that 3 are going to BYU
and one to Utah state so I've basically made some life time friends.
All of them even wrote in my journal like the sweetest sincere notes.
So I'm glad I went cause I have some amazing close friends now!

Friday
Hard day that ended well. This is the day that I spent all morning
taking one of the new Hermana's to a ton of doctors and she ended up
deciding to go home. But my day ended good because we spent the last 3
hours of the day going one person at a time and talking about why we
love each person in our district. On my gosh it was so powerful. I'm
so thankful for all the people that are in my life. I was blessed with
the best district in the world and I have loved every single person.
Without them I don't think I would have made it here. Your district in
the MTC is your family. They are all you have and if you support each
other then you can get through anything cause you have Jesus and the
best people in the MTC on your side.

Saturday
Hermana Cluff left at like 5am in the morning. It was weird not having
her around. She is the first one to leave from our district (Mexico is
her mission). So the sleep has slowly decreased starting with this
day. Best part of the day is I got my travel plans! I AM ACTUALLY
LEAVING SOON!! I leave the MTC at 3:35am Monday morning. I fly from
SLC to Atlanta to Costa Rica! I get to Costa Rica at 2pm and my travel
group is my whole district plus one guys so I'm excited because we are
gonna have so much fun on a plan trying to speak Spanish to everyone!
I can't wait.

Sunday
Church was amazing as always! I taught relief society again! I loved
it. All the Hermana's were sharing their experiences. It was a super
good Sunday. Except today we got told by the branch presidency wife
that we can no longer high five or fist bump. Probably the saddest
moment of the day. Shaking someone's hand good job is just not the
same. But it's not very professional which I understand. So I have
turned away from the life of high five-ing. Probably one of the
hardest things to do this week. But we had the best temple walk ever!
I got to take a picture with my frenches and I gave them each hand
written thank you notes! (One of them told me my notes were to nice
and sincere and I need to work on being mean haha) but it felt good to
tall them thank you for making the MTC so fun! We took lots of good
bye photos. After the devotional and the movie when I had to shake all
the frenches food bye it hit me hard. I cried like they whole night.
It's so hard to say good bye to people you love. It finally hit me
Sunday night that everyone was leaving and I will still be here. But I
know they are all ready and I know that God has a plan for everyone so
I and putting my trust in him. Maybe there is something I still need
to learn here. I don't know but I willing to learn. We said our
goodbyes to everyone.

Monday
What a good day. We dropped off Hermana Van Loon at 2:30am and one of
the frenches was there so I was able to make sure he will watch out
for Hermana Van Loon on there travels. So that was a blessing. Then I
finally gave up and went to the doctor. I have been sick for like 3
weeks like I don't think I been at the MTC without s cold. So I
finally went to the doctor and demanded a Z-pack. And I got it so I am
on the road to getting well! No more blowing my nose!!! Yay! Another
fun part of the morning is I got to sew up a skirt for my companion
and I fixed my blanket! Thank you grandma and granny! Everyone is so
impressed with my sewing skills. I fixed her skirt and she tried it on
and she was like I can't even find where it was ripped?? You are so
awesome. So I felt pretty good. Then since our schedule is so weird we
got to plan our day and we picked singing and Spanish games! We played
telestrations using Spanish and different conjugations which was so
hard but soooo funny!! The we spent 45 min singing. It's such a nice
break to just stop learning and sing even if it is in Spanish! So that
was my favorite class ever and it is the last class we will have with
Hermano mace. So sad. Man has change my life. Then the last class of
the day we played this game called kill the turtle. For those who
don't know how to play you have 2 teams. Both draw a turtle however
they want. Then you ask questions and which ever team gets it right
you get to erase something off the other teams turtle. And let me tell
you when it comes to turtles my district gets crazy. We got so heated
and competitive but I found it hilarious.  You'll like erase a foot
and the other team was so mad. No idea who came up with that game. But
it was sure a good time.

So we had a supper good class and then that night was the first gym
time without the French district. I miss them all so much. But we did
play knock out with the new elders in our zone and I guess they are
kinda cool to. It ended up being way fun. So only one more week and
I'm off for real!

Fun fact of the week: From the cafeteria to our class there is two
routes to get there! But one goes by the mountains. So every day about
6 times a day without fail we take the mountain route and comment on
how beautiful the mountains are in Spanish. It's one of my favorite
parts of the day!
"Ah Las montañas están muy bonita" I'm telling you it happens every day.

Thank you to everyone who wrote me letters or sent me and my companion
anything! Your support and prayers are felt and I'm so grateful for
that! I hope everyone has a wonderful thanksgiving. I am grateful for
a Heavenly Father who love us and knows us all so personally. I am
grateful that he hears and answers every prayer we have. It might not
be what you wanted but it will be what you need. I am grateful that I
can be with my family forever through the restored gospel of Jesus
Christ. I am grateful for my savior who has felt all my pains and can
strengthen me through and trial or any negative thought. I am thankful
for my opportunity to serve the lord and serve his children in Costa
Rica. We are all so blessed and loved in our own way! I'm not sure if
I get to write next Tuesday or Wednesday or if I have to wait another
week but I am excited to get out and learn so much more!

I love you all! Happy Thanksgiving
Con amor
Hermana Freeze

Week 5: You win some, you lose some.

I need to apologize for being the worst friend ever due to being forgetful and crazy busy. Sorry to those of you who keep up with Jordan's mission through this blog; I'm gonna try to be better at keeping all of her emails up to date. Get ready for an overload from one of the greatest girls ever.

-Sam

This week started off so rough.

Wednesday
For some reason it was super hard to study. But we have tests and
quizzes we take each week you are at the MTC.so since we weren't being
productive in studying we decided to do our weekly assessment for week
5. Part of the week stuff was a grammar assessment. I learned after
the fact that this is a new thing in the language part of the MTC. So
I took this test and got a 14%. A FOURTEEN PERCENT. it was the biggest
slap in the face I have ever gotten. After that I had no confidence
what so ever. We went to lunch and I was on the verge of crying the
whole time. Good thing is I have the best district ever. I ended up
getting this NASTY pasta fish salad (I had no idea it was fish) from
the cafeteria. One of the elders was like what can I do to make you
happy? So I made him eat this nasty salad. If was halarious. Then we
made like 3 other elders eat this nasty salad. Every single one spit
it out and had the funniest look on their face. So like yes I felt
better watching everyone else suffer. It's bad I know but my district
totally made me feel better and after praying I felt very comforted.
Second part of the day was amazing. We skyped a member and taught them
a lesson in Spanish. His name was Kenny and he was from COSTA RICA!!
Seriously so fun. Everyone else had a Spanish speaker that talked like
sooooo fast with no English and Kenny from Costa Rica was totally
chill. He talks slow and through in some English here and there, it
was awesome we were having to much fun talking to him that we almost
forgot the lesson! It was good experience tho because he understood
everything I was saying. Take that stupid grammar test.

Thursday.
When I first got to the MTC I loves study time and dreaded language
study cause I never new what to do but now all I want to do is study
language and I have like no motivation to study. It's so hard to find
a balance, but it's something I need really bad. Today I listened to a
conference talk called its never to early and never to late. It was
about how we need to teach our children when they are ready to learn
not when we are ready to teach.  In the end he testified of the savor.
"I know I can’t turn back time, but this I now know--that it’s never
too early and it’s never too late to lead, guide, and walk beside our
children, because families are forever.It is my witness that our
Heavenly Father loved us so much that He sent His Only Begotten Son to
live the life of a mortal so that Jesus could say to us, “I’ve been
where you are, I know what comes next, and I’ll help you through it.”
I know He will"
I also know that when we are ready Christ has been through it all and
he is ready to teach us but only when we are ready to learn. If you
have time this week you can listen to this beautiful talk! Then we
taught Jose again and he writes poems. We asked him to share a poem
with us. He shared the most beautiful story about a mother saving her
child through her faith in Christ. Her child was saved but she ended
up dying. It was all in Spanish and it was the most beautiful thing I
have ever heard. I like cried the whole time. It is absolutely amazing
the miracles that come through faith.

Friday
I don't even want to talk about this day. I'm am so grateful for my
companion. Because of some things we had to be a trio with another
girl in our district. And man oh man was that hard. It took all the
patience I had. But after she wasn't in our trio anymore we found a
way to serve her because she was obviously not having a good time and
taking it out on us. I felt much better when my mind switched into
service mode and not just being upset. So if you hate someone right
now to serve them. Remember the church is one big hospital and we are
all sick in our own way!

Saturday
So this morning we found out about the bombing in France. We have a
sister serving in France who has family that lives there and we have
an elder whose family was in France on vacation right now. The news
hit both of them so hard. After our teacher left to find out what he
could do we all decided to kneel and say a prayer. Immediately after
there was comfort. But we sat on the ground and sung hymns in English
the Spanish then French. The sprit was all around us and it was
amazing to see the strength it gave. Turns out the to missionaries
could go call their family. The coolest thing was as Elder Arndt went
to go call his parents and before he did he turned to Hermano mace and
said I don't need to call I know they are safe. The Holy Ghost told
him they were safe before he even touched the phone. He still got to
call and all was good. It was seriously a big testimony of the truth
and comfort the Holy Ghost can give you.

Sunday
The best day! Our topic all day was obedience! We had a wonderful
discussion and a wonderful sacrament with all 12 of us. Then me and
Hermana Soe taught relief society which is only six of us. It's been
so good to be so small. Our zone is so close I love it.  Then the best
part of Sunday is the Sunday walk! Except out branch president went
with us this time and he was treating us like we were five. Like I'm
just walking around the temple... We walk take some pictures talk and
come back it's really nothing hard. This Sunday the puppy was back. So
again best day ever. I also got to take a picture with the "frenches"
(a district going French speaking that we play with at gym time) they
are so funny! So you'll get that today. Then we had a devo by the
media head for the MTC. We got to watch the new Christmas video the
church will put out this year about the birth of Jesus. It's so good.
I was like so happy because the whole Devo was about Christmas and the
savior. So good. Then for our video we watched the testaments. It is a
video about the ministry of the savior and his reservation and him
visiting the people in the Americas. I loved it. It was like an actual
movie. And yes I cried so hard at the end. It was seriously an amazing
day.

Monday
Today was the first day that it hit me hard. I haven't let myself be
sad or miss my family because I know I am where I need to be. But
today everyone was stressed because they all leave in a week. (I don't
because Costa Rica East got pushed back one more week) so some mean
things were said and I just broke down. I missed me family and my
friends and college and my dog and my grandma. It was really hard. I
let it out for like 20 min and then that was it. I gave myself 20 min
of sadness and then I said some prayers and the rest of the day was so
good. The MTC is an amazing place. Then at night we had a Vball game.
We did Spanish verse French. And we killed. They frenches can talk
some smack but Spanish can get the job done. It was way fun. I also
think I'm getting stronger. There is an elder in my district who use
to wrestle and he is way strong. He does push ups during gym time. I
told him for every 25 push-ups he does I'll do 2. And when me and
Hermana Soe break our goal the punishment is push-ups. So man I am
getting some nice biceps. Like way nice!

Tomorrow we get new missionaries in our zone! Which is so exciting! We
get 3 sisters and 4? Elders... I don't know. But I'm pumped. We get to
like show them around and be like their support system as they try to
make it through the first week. Cause honestly that week is soooo
rough. But I'm excited. We get some fresh blood to talk to at meals
haha. So I'll let you know how it goes next week! Oh and also next
Tuesday is my last Pday in the MTC! Ahh crazy!

I hope everyone is having s great week. Thank you for all the letters
and prayers. I will be here till the 30th now so wish me luck. I'm so
grateful for all the support I have gotten. Also thank you to everyone
who has sent something to Hermana Soe. She appreciates it so much and
it's really helped her feel like she has a family and is at home. So
thanks again I could not have asked for a better family and friends! I
love and miss you guys!

Fun fact of the week:
For Sunday lunch they serve byu creamery ice cream. Every Sunday I
have 3 bowls. Yes that's right three full bowls of ice cream because I
have a problem. Sometimes I make people in my district go get me bowls
so I don't look too fat. But hey it's good stuff.

Love you guys!
Hermana Freeze

Week 4

First let me start off by saying that I had the best day in the world
yesterday. Went to dinner and there was chick-fil-a on the menu. And
like 2 days earlier we had this chicken sandwich like we have every
week in the MTC, and Hermana Jess was like oh man I could kill for
some chick-fil-a. Gonna be honest I went and prayed for some better
food or just help to eat it cause they serve the same thing every
week. And what shows up... Two chicken sandwiches with waffle fries.
God will answer your prayers. Gonna be honest we all stole the
chick-fil-a sauce and so next time they have the nasty chicken it's
gonna be like having Chick-fil-a all over again. Im so excited. Oh
then I got a package from my family filled with chips and salsa.
Basically the best day of my life.

Side note. There's like some problem with our mission, they like
aren't ready to receive us yet so I think all 5 of us going to costa
Rica east are staying back and extra week while everyone leaves. And
since we are in some weird change with districts we get no knew
missionaries and since it's thanksgiving and we weren't suppose to be
here all our teachers are off. So I will most likely be here till
November 30th just chilled with 4 other missionaries. Weird. They said
it could change back to the 23 and we will know for sure on Friday
because Friday is when everyone else is getting their travel plans. So
if I get plans on Friday I leave if not I stay. But hey if I stay they
say holland comes on thanks giving so like that could be pretty cool.

Last Thursday we has my favorite class yet. Hermano Mace had us read
in Alma 24 about the people who made a covenant with the lord to put
down there weapons of war for peace. We related this to us and asked
us what are our "swords". The swords are things that you do to your
self that keep you from becoming a Christlike missionary. So we write
these things on a piece of paper and then (like the people) we buried
them in the ground to never do them again. It was a supper powerful
lesson. We all have things that we do to ourselves that keep us from
following Christ. I hope all of you will choose to put those things in
the ground and never do them again. Just like the people in Alma 24.
Also on this day I pulled out a quote from Ashley and it said "little
by little one travels far." ~ J.R.R. Tolkien basically was the
reminder I needed. I feel like I know nothing and have barely learned
Spanish but if I look from where I came from I have come so far it's
the past couple weeks. If you ever feel like your not progressing just
look back and see where you've come then try harder.

Service time again and we were given the same job. This time I told
Hermana Soe straight up how I was feeling and why and what bothered
me. She was nice about it and we were able to get through service
peacefully and without a bad attitude. What a difference it makes if
you can just be honest with people. It will seriously surprise you how
good it can be.

Sunday.
Sunday was the best as always. I gave the opening prayer in Spanish
and since district A was leaving we had two musical numbers the temple
walk after church was beautiful! We too lots of group photos because
they were leaving. We went to see a talk by Elder Holland last night
that was so good. I learned so much about the importance of opening
your mouth and not being afraid to speak about the gospel of Jesus
Christ. Seriously so good. Then we all stood outside and listened to
the departing district say there good byes. Everyone was crying it was
so sad. It's crazy how close you can get to people in such a short
amount of time. We get to know people here on a spiritual level and
your friendship is forever changed. We are down to 13 now for two
weeks. Then we will be down to 5 and then we will all leave.

Worse thing of the week: I got a flan in the mail and they threw it
away. So all I got was an empty Cereal box. :( (don't worry they
didn't throw away the cards) it still sucked. How rude.

 Fun fact of the week: I drink Sprite at every single meal... I'm
convinced it's the only reason I can focus and stay awake for all the
hours of the day while everyone else falls asleep.

 All is well here. Besides that it's getting colder and I'm still
here. I love all of you! Thank you to everyone for the letters and
packages. I got a letter from my cousins this week and they wrote
Hermana Soe as well. It was the highlight of our day.

Ps Shara: we loved the picture of Florida. At first we thought she
wrote the wrong person because Hermana Jess is going to serve in
Florida. It was really funny. And I loved the encourage meant from
them to keep working hard on my Spanish they are so darling!

I love you all! Thanks for the support!
Hermana Freeze

Week 3

The struggle is real. Spanish is a big slap in the face all day long.
I love it and hate it. What an adventure the MTC is! Prepare yourself
this is a long email but like your welcome to skip to the end. I'll
still love you. So here was my week.

Tuesday our devotional speaker was Neil L. Anderson. And he gave an
amazing talk about sacrifice, opposition, adversary, and deliverance.
He testified a lot about the power of our savior and it gave me great
motivation to press on.

Wednesday's are always the hardest days. You feel so tired because you
just spent the day before learning nothing. It's like the day you come
home from vacation and you like need a vacation from your vacation.
This Wednesday Hermana Soe got super sick. So typically in the
mornings we spend the first 30 min planing our day. Then the next
three hours is devoted to
personal study (where you study for the needs of the people you teach.
Most the time we study about prayer and the Holy Ghost to try and
invite people to develop a relationship with their Heavenly Father)
companion study ( where you share what you studied and then plan how
it can be used to help those you teach )
and language study ( where you are "suppose to" learn everything you
might need to say today in Spanish. Which is impossible. ). Since
Hermana Soe was sick she basically took a nap during this time and we
didn't really get anything done. We had to teach Gracela a single
mother with one son, who works as a maid. The lesson was terrible.
Worst lesson we have ever taught. We know it's because of the lack of
preparation too. We couldn't say like anything we needed to in Spanish
and our lesson was all over the place but we testified of prayer and
invited her to pray. We walked out of that lesson completely laughing.
It's the first bad lesson we have had and we just thought hey now we
can only go up.

Thursday hit and Hermana Soe was not doing good at all. I let her
sleep in. While she slept I did 2 hours of duolingo, read 3 conference
talks and tried to listen to the Book of Mormon in Spanish but I fell
asleep. So I guess it was nice cause I got a nap out of it too. She
woke up and was feeling much etter so we went to class and Hermana Soe
received a package. It completely made her day. My parents sent her
cookies and she shared with the whole class. She just lit up when she
got mail it was the sweetest thing to see! (She is from New Zealand
and it takes years to send mail from there to here) Spanish is coming
for me. Super slow and grammatically incorrect but it's still there.
I'm getting better at speaking Spanish straight from my mind instead
of reading it. So there's that.

Friday was good. We stated with service. We had to clean all the sinks
and mirrors in the girls dorm. Basically just wiping hair out of the
sink for an hour. Gross. While we were cleaning I found myself getting
annoyed. You know when you like clean something or like are given a
job and you do it but then someone goes and does it right behind you?
And your like dude come on like I already did that, or like seriously
it wasn't good enough for you, or please just do it your self why do I
even bother. Well my companion was cleaning behind me and it like made
me super annoyed and I knew it was stupid for me to be annoyed so I
like tried not to be but it totally bothered me. And then basically
the rest of the day was terrible. All because of my negative thoughts
In the morning. Im telling you if you let Satan in your mind even just
a little he will make you so unhappy. He made me feel so dumb. So I
encourage all of you to watch your thoughts this week. You think that
they don't effect you but they do. Your thoughts determine your
attitude. Try and be positive and give people the benefit  of the
doubt. The day turned around when we were teaching Gracela. We were
teaching about prayer and I felt this super strong prompting to like
skip to the end of our lesson and it was amazing. Probably the most
amazing lesson we have ever had. She felt the love of our Heavenly
Father and agreed to start to pray ever day and look for Christ in her
life. Hard thing was she asked me what the difference between the Holy
Ghost and an angel and you think we'll that's not a super hard
question but like in Spanish it was impossible.

Saturday
I hate how words in Spanish have genders. I don't get it and I hate it
and it sucks.
That afternoon Hermana Jess had a breakdown with Spanish. So we took
like 30 min just trying to help her out. It's hard because one of us
breaks down like everyday and you just feel for that person so much
cause this is so hard and you feel like you've learned nothing. But
every 3 hours is a new class and you pick yourself up and start again.

Sunday
Fast Sunday! The lord is miraculous! I was able to fast for like a
full 20 hours without getting light headed or sick or anything which
is a miracle. I fasted for strength to learn the language and for one
of our investigators. He has cancer and so I fasted for him to get
better. Fasting brings a strong spirit for the day. We had mission
conference that was so inspired and uplifting. I can't even begin to
tell you all that I learned. Then we had a point in the day where we
had like 40 min of just free study time. We have a little bit of
tension in our class but nothing like the other zone. Anyways we were
given an assignment to write down 25 talents we have by Monday. Which
is hard.  It seriously is like the most difficult assignment we have
been given. So I had this promoting that we should help each other out
with the assignment. we went around the room and to each person we
discussed the good talents we see in the. What a neat experience to
see our class bond. We are closer then ever because when you can see
the good in someone your less likely to get mad at them.  Great great
day. Oh and guess what mom one of my talents they said was great
dental hygiene lol. Thought you would be proud. Then on the very first
day Hermana Jess saw this statue of two missionaries on  bikes and she
said one day I'm gonna get on the back of that bike. Well Sunday was
that day. Our Sunday night film got out super early and it was dark
enough but light enough to take the photo. It was hilarious. In a
skirt Hermana Jess climbed up onto bik behind the statue of the elder.
Basically was one of the funniest things I've ever seen. But the best
part of the day was ... Well side note. Hermana Soe is Tongan and
basically can make friends with anyone who is brown in like 2 seconds.
So she makes friends with all these people and they all give her food.
So Sunday night she walks in with a bag of scoops and queso. Yes
that's right my favorite. So I couldn't resist I ate half the bag and
just sat in my bed with the most delicious snack.

Monday
Yesterday I hit the halfway Mark in the MTC. I am leaving for costa
Rica in 20 days. Wow that came fast. Monday we went to teach Jose but
he was in the hospital because of his cancer. In stead of teaching
they had us email him a lesson. In Spanish. Like a whole lesson. In
Spanish. Over email. Did I mention all in Spanish. Oh my gosh it was
hard. You want to say so much and you just can't. :( we did meet his
wife who is so cute and amazing. Seriously such a nice lady. And then
Hermano Mace's class hit. He asked the French speaking sister in our
district hoe many words of French she says every day. She said 20 so
he told us WE CAN ONLY SPEAK 20 ENGLISH WORDS ALL DAY. some elder said
"what really but that's not a lot" and he put 7 Tally's under his
name. So basically we get one English word an hour. So that's been
brutal. There is nothing more frustrating then not being able to
express your thoughts. Thank goodness I got a package from my family
filled with my favorite Carmel apple and lots of warm clothes. Biggest
blessing ever was getting to wear pants to bed last night. I was so
warm. However while doing the pre work for the last class of the day I
got super overwhelmed and had a breakdown. I curled into a ball in my
XXL skirt I happen to own and just cried the other Hermana helped and
I said a prayer asking for comfort and I felt a lot better. Then I ate
the entire Carmel Apple in my package. Right then and there. The whole
thing. In like 5 min and honestly I felt a lot better. The magic of
sugar.
Then I got to read my letter from Sam and my family and another
blessing was that everyone was gone. I was able to read my letters and
cry all to myself (which never happens in the MTC cause alone time
doesn't exist) so they was a tender mercy for me and you know I felt a
lot better.

Sorry for the obnoxiously long letter this week. The iPads let you
cheat and I can write my letter in notes and copy and paste it to mail
so it doesn't count as Internet time! So once I get to Costa Rica my
letters will be so much shorter! Oh speaking of iPads I've learned
this week that since my district is in the pilot program no other
group of missionaries gets the same schedule as us. It's completely
unique. And our teachers teachings are completely unique as well. They
are trying lessons that have never been done before. Like this week we
got to plan what we are going to be taught for the next week. We got
to pick our entire schedule for class next week. Hermano mace said we
are 1 of only 20 other districts in the world that gets to do that.
Crazy super neat. I'm excited. I honestly love it. We do get
interviewed a lot on how we are learning Spanish and we take all these
assessments that make you feel like crap. Other then that it's super
fun.

I love love love you guys! Thanks for all the mail and packages! Your
day can't be bad when you get something I'm the mail! And the support
from you guys means a lot you can feel your home cheering you on here
it's really neat. A special experience I will never forget.

I read this in the temple this morning and thought I would share.

1 Verily, thus saith the Lord unto you whom I love, and whom I love I
also chasten that their sins may be forgiven, for with the
chastisement I prepare a way for their deliverance in all things out
of temptation, and I have loved you

Remember he loves you. He humbles you because he loves you. And he
will always prepare a way for deliverance because he loves us.

Have a great week!

Hermana Freeze

Halloween! Thanks for the cookies mom

The bike statue

another temple walk. Picture with friends that Hermana Soe made... Cause she makes friends so easy